I Have Nothing to Say

Life has been very boring as of late. Yet so much has been going on that if I start I may just babble on forever. I feel like I have been sucker punched and my flesh cries out to God, "WHY?" Somewhere in the far reaches of my mind I know better. I know that I have no right to question or be angry. I know that He has a plan. It is times like that that I realize how weak my faith truly is. A dear brother in Christ has, this week, been diagnosed with inoperable pancreatic cancer. I know that this news must have been devastating to his family. It has been devastating to his church family too. He has become such an important mentor to both my husband and myself. His love for Christ and others is so evident in his smile. This news came as I myself have been dealing with some medical issues. I went yesterday for a mammogram. Last week I had an issue that caused me to call my doctor. My doctor found a small lump in my left breast. I am currently awaiting a referral to a surgeon... according to the doctor I saw yesterday, because of the symptoms that caused me to seek help in the first place, she is fairly confident that she knows what it is. There is a 90% chance that it is benign, but the milk duct will have to be removed anyway. The bright side to all of this is that due to my ignorance of family medical history on my fathers side, I have been in contact with several cousins that I have not seen or heard from in over 20 years. We are all planning to get together sometime this fall. I has been so much fun catching up. It has been like we've been together all this time, just picked up where we had left off. Well, I've got to go get the kids ready for school. I may ramble more later.... if I feel like it.