Feelin' Better

I am almost feeling human again. It is good to be back. I called the doctors office this morning and spoke with the nurse. She said that the lab results were in but, the doctor would have to call me back with them. So now I'm waiting for him to call. I'm really not stressing over it. What will be, will be. Fretting over it isn't going to help change it. Baseball and swim wrap up next week. I am looking forward to being able to slow down a little. Cameron has been invited to continue training over the winter. Only 15 were selected and it is by invitation only. It is kinda a big deal but, I'm not sure if I'm willing to commit to it. There is just so much going to be happening between now and Christmas. With all the school and church stuff our calender is filling up fast. I guess ultimately it will be Cam's decision. I'm just the chauffeur. The kids get report cards this week. Matt is so stressed out. They actually get letter grades in kindergarten. He is such a perfectionist that he's going to have ulcers by the time he is seven. I need to come up with some type of a reward night for them. I know that Chucky Cheese gives free tokens for A's. The problem with that is Cameron hates Chucky Cheese. If anyone has any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

Take it easy!??! GRRRR!!

Well, here I am. I'm suppose to be taking it easy. Someone oughta tell my kids that. I ventured into town with them yesterday. I almost had a breakdown in the middle of Blockbuster. I am defiantly not 100% yet. I am still waiting on pathology results. I should have got them on Friday. When I called the doctor I was told that the samples had needed to be sent to a second lab and that they would call me on Monday. All this and I am suppose to be taking it easy????

Under the Knife

I'm home. The surgery went very well, and now I'm waiting ... I'm waiting for the meds to wear off and for me to start really hurting. Kinda dreading that part. The surgeon said that every thing looks good. He couldn't even find a mass, just some inflamed tissue. He took a small sample for testing and removed the milk duct. Once I have completely healed I will no longer be bleeding. I have been tired and sickly for quite some time now due to the loss of blood that was occuring. I can't wait to have energy again. God has answered many prayers. I will be much more vigiliant for potential problems for now on. I'm tired and the oxycotin is really kicking in now. I need to go to bed before I start saying things that will only serve to embarass me. Thanks to everyone for the prayers.

4 wheelin' fun

Matt and Uncle James

Cameron and Aunt Holly

My brother and his family spent the day with us. They brought their 4 wheelers and we all rode on them until the lack of light forced us indoors. We had a blast. The kids are asking for 4 wheelers for Christmas. It is a pretty safe bet that that isn't going to happen.

I Have Nothing to Say

Life has been very boring as of late. Yet so much has been going on that if I start I may just babble on forever. I feel like I have been sucker punched and my flesh cries out to God, "WHY?" Somewhere in the far reaches of my mind I know better. I know that I have no right to question or be angry. I know that He has a plan. It is times like that that I realize how weak my faith truly is. A dear brother in Christ has, this week, been diagnosed with inoperable pancreatic cancer. I know that this news must have been devastating to his family. It has been devastating to his church family too. He has become such an important mentor to both my husband and myself. His love for Christ and others is so evident in his smile. This news came as I myself have been dealing with some medical issues. I went yesterday for a mammogram. Last week I had an issue that caused me to call my doctor. My doctor found a small lump in my left breast. I am currently awaiting a referral to a surgeon... according to the doctor I saw yesterday, because of the symptoms that caused me to seek help in the first place, she is fairly confident that she knows what it is. There is a 90% chance that it is benign, but the milk duct will have to be removed anyway. The bright side to all of this is that due to my ignorance of family medical history on my fathers side, I have been in contact with several cousins that I have not seen or heard from in over 20 years. We are all planning to get together sometime this fall. I has been so much fun catching up. It has been like we've been together all this time, just picked up where we had left off. Well, I've got to go get the kids ready for school. I may ramble more later.... if I feel like it.