What next???

You know it has been a rough day when I am blogging at four in the morning. I have all kinds of thoughts and emotions floating around in my head. I figure if I write it out I'll be able to make sense of it. Cameron went for a new evaluation yesterday. Now, I had scheduled it because I was seeing some things I didn't like. I was seeing some regression in areas that she had already overcame. To make a long story short, she was up to three years behind in some areas. Particularly with her fine motor skills and visual integration. Her brain doesn't always correctly translate what her eyes are seeing. There is a whole detailed list, but I'm not going to bore you with the details. The therapist didn't really say anything we hadn't already heard. She just put it in a way that made it feel more intense. There are so many hurdles we thought we had already cleared. Now we find ourselves back at the beginning, a little older, a bit beat up, and not so confident that we will be able to jump quite as high. Anyway, now I find myself second guessing myself. If she was in school would they be able to do a better job? I don't think so, yet the question does bother me. I've surrounded myself with the homeschooling community. I forget how hostile the environment outside that community can be. Even those friends and family who are supportive of the choice, are often supportive because they love us, not because they understand. We will be starting a new series of testing at Shands in the upcoming months. Please be in prayer for Cameron and the rest of our family. There will be some big decisions to be made as we begin to get more input from the doctors and therapist and as a new school year gets ready to begin.