Confused, depressed, angry, happy, excited, anxious and icky

My emotions have been on a roller coaster all week. School starts in two weeks. I am not ready to send my baby boy off to kindergarten. Yes, he did go to pre-k. But, that was only four hours a day and attendance wasn't mandatory. This, this is a whole new ball game.

It is like he went from a baby to a five year old overnight. Who gave him permission? I'd like to have a word with that person. Cameron is a whole other story. As you may know, for several reasons, we have chosen to home school her. This is not a decision that was made lightly or in haste. There was much prayer and thought put into it. However, I'm tired. I'd like nothing more than to send her to school next year. Jeff has pretty much said, "no" to it. I feel as if I have very little support and being solely responsible for your child's education is a huge responsibility. Our school system, while well meaning, is totally inept and ignorant. They look at her diagnoses and assume she is ESE. Her IQ is above 160 and she is well above grade level. Yet, because she needs needs OT (along with some other therapies), their solution is to treat her as mentally retarded. They refuse to take into account her accomplishments and abilities. I would love to send her to the same private school that Matt goes to. But, Jeff seems to think she is better off at home. So, I suppose I'll respect that decision even if I don't like it. I know that I don't like it for purely selfish reasons. But, like I said before... I'm tired.